stressin

gahh too much on my mind I swear it’s about to explode. So many questions I’m not sure I want the answers to but I also don’t wanna live with the what ifs.. Yet worried the risk is more than it’s worth.. but it’s not about me. I fight for my son. Which brings me back to the beginning.. I just .don’t .know.

I knew parenting would be hard. just not this hard, or in this way.

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A day of play! Activity 1— “cloud dough” (baby oil & flour, no exact measurements!) He’s having a blast making towers and smashing them :) View high resolution

A day of play! Activity 1— “cloud dough” (baby oil & flour, no exact measurements!) He’s having a blast making towers and smashing them :)

Caribou addict in the making! View high resolution

Caribou addict in the making!

Hot chocolate/coffee date with my mini me :) lounging on the couch watching Despicable Me! View high resolution

Hot chocolate/coffee date with my mini me :) lounging on the couch watching Despicable Me!

I really need to start getting on here more.. for my own sanity.. Paxton doesn’t talk as much as an average 2 year old, so I brought up my concern with his Dr who referred us to an audiologist. The first round of tests proved that he has mild hearing loss and that the left ear drum didn’t show any movement when tested. After all testing we met with an actual ear dr who found fluid in Paxton’s ears, not infected or anything, just fluid that could possibly be hanging around from a recent ear infection or one to come. So to be sure, we go back Feb 13, if the fluid is no longer there they will retest the hearing to see if that was the cause or if there are other issues. If there is still fluid he has to get tubes put in his ears and then 5 weeks after that go back to have his hearing checked.. such a process. I just want answers now. Paxtons pediatrician also referred us to a speech therapist to get the ball rolling incase it has nothing to do with his hearing, however their wait list is so long we haven’t even been added to it yet.. just doesn’t make sense. I hate this feeling of helplessness, like I should have done more and he wouldn’t be struggling with this now.. View high resolution

I really need to start getting on here more.. for my own sanity..

Paxton doesn’t talk as much as an average 2 year old, so I brought up my concern with his Dr who referred us to an audiologist. The first round of tests proved that he has mild hearing loss and that the left ear drum didn’t show any movement when tested. After all testing we met with an actual ear dr who found fluid in Paxton’s ears, not infected or anything, just fluid that could possibly be hanging around from a recent ear infection or one to come. So to be sure, we go back Feb 13, if the fluid is no longer there they will retest the hearing to see if that was the cause or if there are other issues. If there is still fluid he has to get tubes put in his ears and then 5 weeks after that go back to have his hearing checked.. such a process. I just want answers now. Paxtons pediatrician also referred us to a speech therapist to get the ball rolling incase it has nothing to do with his hearing, however their wait list is so long we haven’t even been added to it yet.. just doesn’t make sense. I hate this feeling of helplessness, like I should have done more and he wouldn’t be struggling with this now..

(Source: randominternet)

(Reblogged from laughterinmysoul)

Paxton’s 2nd Birthday!!

Semester’s done so I’ve found there is such thing as “free time” once Paxton’s asleep! So I decided to dig through my scrapbooking goods and make Paxton a birthday card! His party is tomorrow, I cannot wait :) View high resolution

Semester’s done so I’ve found there is such thing as “free time” once Paxton’s asleep! So I decided to dig through my scrapbooking goods and make Paxton a birthday card! His party is tomorrow, I cannot wait :)

Where I spend most of my days off.. driving choo-choo trains around this room :)

We decided to call her Ellie <3 Yes, I’ve officially lost my mind. Toddler + puppy = Chaos! But Paxton’s obsessed with her, and she loves him right back. So worth the chaos! View high resolution

We decided to call her Ellie <3 Yes, I’ve officially lost my mind. Toddler + puppy = Chaos! But Paxton’s obsessed with her, and she loves him right back. So worth the chaos!